Caught?

I went to bed last night - alone - as I do most nights. Ricky stayed up claiming that he had work on the computer to do. About 30 minutes after I'd gone to bed, I had reason to go into the kitchen for something and, when I did, Rick literally jumped out of his skin while at his laptop at the kitchen table - slamming the screen down and appearing ridiculously nervous/guilty about something. I did not question him - I just did what I had to and went back to the bedroom. His behavior/reaction was isanely suspicious and I assumed that he would stop whatever he was doing and come to bed right away. He didn't come in until 3-4 hours later. I didn't say anything and this morning was quiet too. He seemed to have a sense that I may have seen or suspected something and behaved strangely all day.

Had the porn - that he so solemnly swore off - crept back into his life? Had it ever left? Or was he in a chat room? Perhaps e-mailing with a girlfriend? Have I been blaming his work for the distance between us all of this time when the actual problem was another woman?