Tension at Home

Now that things have been brought out into the open a bit, the tension around the home is palpable despite my best efforts to make them seem as normal as I can. I have noticed that, for a few days, Ricky has been making an effort to be home at more reasonable times. (He often does this after an argument about his hours/absence at home but it's always short-lived.)

Even when he is here, the Blackberry is constantly out and the computer is always on. He is doing work in the kitchen every night until well after midnight. Yes - he's been physically here a bit more - but he's not HERE. I'm hesitant to say anything about how I feel for fear that he'll get angry and think that nothing is ever "good enough". I'm desperately trying to get in contact with the other MFT my therapist, Ethel, referred us to for couples counseling. I fear that he will change his mind about going if I getting the appointment takes too long.